| ey i miss writing here my god alot has happened..... im looking for a job right now hopefully i get this really cool job as an account manager... whatever but what really bugs me is my current relationship.... you know how hard it is to do long distance relationship....its kinda killing me... and making me sad every single day.. i hope i can still hold on i am trying to.... im trying everything not to get tempted or what... try not to be lonely but my goooddd i am so lonely... i think i need anti depression my god anyway ill write again soon..cant think of anything to say anymore except that i love my gf... and i hope im not keeping her from anything |
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naked and sacred
Chorus:
When i'm with you, i feel naked and sacred
And this world can be so cold
I wanna hold you naked and sacred
Till i grow old
What does love mean? can love last?
I ask myself these questions, haunted by the past
I've walked these city streets
I've known victoies and defeats
Searchin', hopin', just barley copin'
Baby i want to be good for you
I want to be true
Don't know how i'd live with myself
If i ever hurt you
(chorus)
Since i met you my life's changed
I feel like a bird that's been let out of it's cage
Baby i want to be good for you
I want to be true
Don't know how i'd live with myself
If i ever hurt you
(chorus)
Your hand's healing me, your love's filling me
When you go away, your hearts still in me
(chorus x2)
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| wow its been.... weeks since i last wrote... a lot of bad things has happend i lost my job... had to resign because of people in my office.. just when i was about to get a promotion... and i really dont know what is in store for me.. will continue working here or no... what sad is that even if i try to work really hard i end up not making it... am i really too young??? or am not that good. sadddd. i guess the only thing that makes me smile... is that pretty girl back in texas... god i miss her so much wish i could just tell her everything that i want to say and not keep it. cant afford long calls everyday. its too expensive. aileen ur the only bestfrind that i have come back na ok? |
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| i dont know what to feel right now. i just called aileen and asked her why she was so frustrated... she told me that her mom does not want to her to come home... all of a sudden tears fell on my cheeks and i cant help but wonder... why is this all happening to me... i have everything planned i am absolutley sure that i will see her on my b-day... i so wan to kiss her right now... bear with me this entry might be useless but i feel so shitty right now. i dont feel like working nor eating or doing whatever... help... god damn it... i am getting my promotion but i want to celebrate that with her i want her to be here.. i want to see how proud she is of me... god this is all im asking of u i know ive been a bad person but just do this for me and i swear ill be good... hun do whatever you can to comeover pls... i beg you.. i need u so ba right now... :__( |
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| new year.. hmm... what happened for the last 12 months of 2004? well definitley a what i would say a recovery year for me... 2003 wasnt such a great year for me... but for this year i did not screw up not once... i found true love... maturity... responsibility... everything i learned on how to be content on what i have and be happy about it.. although it wasnt like beofre that i had people giving me everything.. this time i had to earn it... got a great job that i hate... got my first credit card that is not an extension... hehehe.... finally gave everybody presents... for x-mas which i normally dont do... i mean this year has been the simpliest but the most enjoyable year that i had... i hope this year there is even more good things to come... im planning to get married hahaha lagot ka hun.... and to have a kid of my own... hehe joke... i hope i get to save a lot for my future and for me not to forget my responsibilities in life... to all the people who came in and out of my life thank you i have learned so much... hun.. thanx for getting me out of that dark room and taming me.. i love you hope you be back soon.... |
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